Well, to start off I'm yet again completely undone and totally pressed for the Lord. Whatever that statement means, I'm there. There’s even more. I can't fully word all of this so for that I apologize, but I'm testifying and pray this speaks to lives and changes hearts. That'll explain the back and forth on this, but it all connects. Also if I offend anyone for different preferences in belief, I apologize, I'm just real and for me I don't stop God at all, and for that I do not apologize.
This week has to be one of the most amazing weeks in my life. We were at church yesterday and our pastor said we were having another speaker and he wasn't speaking. So the surprise was from that point on. Matt Bomhoff one of the leaders over Convergence School of Supernatural Ministry (CSSM) spoke a word like I've never ever heard before. The word was for me and every key point he made hit stronger in my spirit. Man, I was and still am challenged in a healthy way that God revealed is a key launching pad for what’s to come. Every single thing was right for my life and spot on at that.
I can't explain it fully, but I do have to testify of what God is doing. I've applied for CSSM and had several words and much, much confirmation this is where I'm to go. God spoke to me and apparently 7 others that He's got something BIG for me here. I have a total of18 confirmations in two months to go, and I'm not even doubting going, just trying to get it all sorted out lol. I can't even speak on it, but its radical and new.
The enemy has tried to halt all progress to the school by any way possible, and still is defeated EVERY time! What's really cool is another word was spoken to me, hey are you going to CSSM, after yet another attempt to take it all away. Of course the look on my face is like what did you say? :-) So God doing real work. These people don't know I've been processing to go and get it all done. So it is sooo God as if it slapped me right in the face. These people spoken about are people of God and very much in healthy relationship with the Lord, which makes the words more significant at this point to me.
What you don't know is something HUGE, HUGE, HUGE for my life here, is God has always since I was born instilled a deep heart for worship. I live for and breathe worship. Worship is part of my DNA. I LOVE a good solid word. Just something is here with worship. Well CSSM has a worship track to go through if we choose. I thought God it'll be cool to do this, but was like man its been years since I've sang, picked up a guitar or even played a keyboard. God showed me dreams, visions, and even a bigger spark for worship, not like any part of this ever was dying. I talked to our worship leader and he started crying big time. I was taken by that and was like what do I do? He reminded me to step out in my calling. A few weeks later God told me I had to clean out my closet for a guitar. I was like whoa ok God I'll do it. I did it. I have opportunities for 2 guitars given to me (none of these people even know what's been taking place just they felt led to give these guitars away to me) which is huge to me since I didn't have a way to invest in them since finances right now are stretched with a lot of things right now. Two other worship leaders and friends of mine asked me dude have you ever wanted to lead worship here. I looked at them and asked if Mark talked to them or if they talked to each other at all. They said no and was like why. I explained what transpired and they were really amazed as well. Man the fire of God hit us all right in the worship center like never before, like a lightning bolt instant. Our pastor walked in and prayed for me and asked me why I hadn't shared my testimony with the church. I paused and said if that's what God wants me to do then I'll do it.
On another note things have been really awesome lately. God has big time restored everything back in my life that was taken away. Family from VT, and FL are all led to move here. Let me tell you when a 3 year old and a 5 year old comes running in the church and says how much they missed you, your heart tends to just go to a place that’s unexplainable. I can't begin to tell you how crazy I felt crying on the foyer floor at church and people around tearing up and loving what took place because God just did something awesome. For me that more than made my day. Totally unexpected. I didn't even know my family came back in town. They wanted to surprise us. I'm not a father, but seeing my little spiritual nephews like that did something and opened something in me I've never known was there.
Gods love is so amazing like I can never explain. I can try but no words, expression, nothing can fully say it at all. I want to thank every person here who prays for, and supports me and my family. God knows who to send at just the right time. God bless you and know you are loved, valued and HIGHLY favored in the Lord.
